Against the Current

Yet another film about life/death (I must not have gotten the hint sufficiently, and I am not choosing these movies). This one can be recommended due to the banter between the characters. I found the dialogue to leave me giggling because of the dry humour.

Beyond the humour, there was a song part way through the movie by the Red House Painters called 'rollercoaster'. One line of the song is "Reminding me I'll never be able to relive this day, except in memory." Maybe for many this point is obvious... and although I know it cognitively, it is so easy to let days pass without doing anything productive or even remembering one day as distinct from the next.

I won't go into the details, but this point was driven home in 2006 when I couldn't remember the events from a few months prior. I have been living my life in a bit of a haze. This raises an important point. In the cycle of wakefulness, work/school, sleeping, eating, and hopefully sex, how does one distinguish one day from the rest? It seems like an never-ending cycle, but it does have an end and when one gets to the end and they look back, how do you circumvent thinking 'Holy fuck! What the hell have I done with my life and what a load of useless crap have I been worried about/involved with?'

Creating positivity on a daily basis. Rising above the small bullshit. Eating tasty food (and actually savouring it). Touching people (in appropriate manners). Moving my body every day (i.e., exercise and along with that hopefully being outside for part of it and noticing nature's beauty and wonder). These are bits of what I am aiming for. Doing something to remember the day as distinct from the next because even if it is a seemingly endless cycle of wake/work/eat/sleep, each day is different and it is only us who can make it different mentally (because we perceive it to be the same despite the reality that each is different). Even if you do the same thing exactly the same 20 times, it will never actually be the same.

What does it mean to go against the current for me? To live in the present instead of being swept into the past or pushed into the future.