Playing with fire

It's been busy. Not so busy that I can't talk, just busy.

Volunteering and one job interview has kept me running and realising something about myself. I'm either not yet ready to date, or I'm ready but the guy who asked me out isn't my cup of tea. He has a doctorate in engineering, intelligent, cute (in an I'm an inch or two shorter than you sort of way - almond shaped eyes), stalky (which I like), etc. He was way too eager. It actually scared me because I need a bit of time to slowly work into getting to know someone it seems.

Is that it? There are people that you meet that you feel like you have known them your entire life and it's just comfortable being with them from the moment you enter into each other's orb. That wasn't the case with him. Do I take that as an it's a no go or do I tell him to slow down and take it easy on me because I have realised I'm not entirely over the chap I lived with and last loved? I've no clue.

I also had an interview as a health and safety officer for the feds. I haven't heard back (interview was last Wednesday but god knows the feds are not quick about communication) but I'm not feeling the love towards the position. I don't know if I can handle being utterly hated and needing to be so nasty/picky to shut businesses down, investigate deaths, blah blah blah. We'll see. Maybe they won't deem me worthy, who knows.

Then, I am going to apply for a ems/fire position in another city that is drivable along with other things that have popped up. I love being self-employed, but I'm not going to get a mortgage this way. I have no idea if I could handle being a fire fighter...